Uncertainty

I walk through this life clueless
Not knowing what to do unless
Someone tells me the rest
Helps me escape the tests
For now I'm hiding in the shadows
Wondering how much you know
And which are the feelings to show
And what do you se when you pass me by
Do you see me or a girl who's alive
Cause each day that passes I loose some more
Closing the gap between me and the door
And when I reach it then I'll pour
My feelings on this page
More words with each passing day
And till then I'll just wait
And continue weaving these lies
And remembering all those times
When you made me smile instead of cry
When you made me want to live, not die
And we never asked the question "why?"
And there was more to do than sigh
And wonder where things went wrong 
And listen to our certain special song
And wonder why I waited so long
To tell you the truth
But now what's the use
I've shattered everybody's trust
With dreams and love and lies and lust
And left myself alone
So much for dreams and hope
So now I'm ranting in these poems
Instead of tying to find a home
And as our year draws to a close
An I reflect on how far we rose
It didn't matter who loved te most
Cause in the end it was an uncertainty
Neither of us know what we need
Yet no matter how it seems
There's no escape for you and me