eyes flicker in and out of conciousness I stare daggers into walls dance around chanting some heroic theme song insert ****** babble for those of us who feel too heavy like invisible chains drag across our ankles and we hold boulders on our shoulders that no one else can see a curse taken from the japanese or chinese memory isnt one of our strong points With razor sharp tongues we see people sliced up infront of us shattering every pathetic little meaning of their existence no remorse turn away when there is blood slice it up, we all have cuts and bruises and certain scars Ill paint my filth across these halls and tell you about what a ***** little ***** I've been Ill get real messy and laugh when you call me a ***** for those of us who forget to eat or want to forget to eat know that , that weight will never go away it stays at the pit of your stomach you will never implode always be at the peak of something like a ****** that never happens For those of us who drink too much and laugh at how that sounds because it really never is enough we have a certain kind of grit that never leaves our colon stays stuck in our intestines we have a certain kind of fire that burns its way up our throats and into our eyes we speak like broken glass
I clawed my demons in the face gauged out their eyes with my bare hands I painted victory blood on that ivory staircase Did my little dance And then we tasted the laughter of children knowing we will never again know how that feels but spend the rest of our lives wanting to get that feeling back stare at the helplessness in your empty hands these hands could hold and hit and cut and stab and mash and grab they can caress, though we break so easily
You have to understand, this **** only comes when Im too tired to think. Sorry