Getting hope to let it slip
All these morbid thoughts
I can't seem to catch up to them
A cacophony surrounds me
I don't know what to say
The adversity of life was just eating  away
Seemingly numbered days
I'm so young
But all life has drained
Look me in the face
Look me in the eyes
You say I look good
And I replied thank you
As the conversation always went
The both of us smiling
But I am because of the malaise sitting in the pit of my stomach
Then he said something crippling
As if this was the day I had waited for
But it was all falling on deaf ears
This isn't the person I thought would jump to this conclusion
When I found they were getting too close I started running
No, no you can't know
You can never know
When did you discover I slipped
How long have you known
The words released from his lips
I just sat still
Like a duck on the pond
Something is wrong
But I don't know why I
I didn't say anything just felt up to play games saying
Oh really, is there
What is wrong with me
The same three words repeat
My brain says perseverance
But my heart faces defeat
So bland and bleak
I was at the mountain peak
I fell off so long ago
And I never stopped falling
I screamed and screamed
Til my shadow was all I could see
Maybe you could tell them all for me
The reason she is dead is because there was something wrong none of us could see
And she was just too scared to speak.