I woke up this morning and I was thirty something and I was a waitress and I was a mother whose children are being raised by their grandparents. I woke up this morning and I was an ex ***** who was trying to put her life back together and I was a high school dropout who got her GED but never did get that nursing degree that I've always promised myself I would have. I woke up this morning and I was living in my sister's house that she so graciously offered me a room in but even after more than a year, it's never quite felt like home. I woke up this morning and I wondered if I'll break down at work today or if the relationship that I'm in will finally be the one, the only, the last relationship I'll ever be in. I woke up this morning and I wondered how much time I have left and why I wasted so much of my life wishing that I was dead. I woke up this morning and I didn't want to hurt myself or anyone else. I woke up this morning and I made plans and set goals for the day and for the week. I woke up this morning and I got out of bed. I went to work, I socialized, I didn't crack, I didn't cry. I was normal today. I woke up this morning.