There was a time
when I sank into silence as an fresh adolescent.
I spent hours upon hours swimming betwixt the waves
in a purgatory of prodigious thoughts
I could not yet comprehend.
The thoughts swam alongside one another,
like a school of angel fish,
only able to travel along the watery currents,
Unable to acknowledge their free will above the liquid abyss.
Then your mind lifted me into the air,
and I finally was able to gasp the salty breeze,
realizing I had been drowning all that time.
My thoughts held my exhausted arms
and unfolded the wings that could not swim.
Yet the salty water continued to bleed out of my eyes
As I felt a rusty chain kiss my ankles.
The angels of my thought
blossomed into reality as I ascended into the cosmos
closer to your love;
Their colorful scales falling back into the atmosphere,
incinerated between the edges of blue earth and black space.
But too many stars sank into my hair out of their own exhaustion
and the ocean anchor yanked my feet down, yet again.
I felt myself speeding through the clouds and back into the sea,
my magnificent wings shattered upon impact.
All my angels were too enamored with your radiant being to turn back,
and I was left to drown in the tidal waves,
without any life left to endure the pain of consciousness.
My mind floated somewhere else in the universe,
close to your pain, unable to keep it out.
One autumn day, when the sun was marked with my mother’s second creation,
your voice fell back into my ear.
As I thoughtlessly slipped into the rhythm of your mind,
I kissed your breath on my lips.
That night I saw all my thoughts flying around your star in a dream…
So I began fighting my way back to the surface
just to glimpse the light of your existence in the sky
before I silenced my heart.
When I reached the boarders of brine,
I found the waves had subsided
and your sun had moved into my sky!
And illuminated all my earth!
All the fixed land I had never recognized till your second arrival.
I danced upon my shore for the first time since childhood
and sang out your name till my voice went hoarse,
but you couldn’t hear anyone above soundless space.
So, I made myself into Icarus
and gathered all the feathers raining down from my angels above,
and pulled all my roots out of my soil.
I used the trustful glue I had kept from your love,
and stepped back to admire the golden wings I had made for you.
But when I had looked back into the sky to show you,
your sun had drifted towards the edge of my galaxy.
My upturned smile melted into fear as I contemplated the journey I had to take.
I cursed the scabs around my ankles
and painfully forced my new wings into my old wounds.
One might say
I found you on a humid black night at a gas station hanging over the bay,
but truly I found you encompassed in a blinding, bursting sphere of light.
I almost forgot how to fly when you opened your eyes and stared into my own,
but as I sank into your arms the light, the night, the wings all exploded.
I looked down to see we had formed our own planet
full of new wonders which felt strangely familiar.
I smiled as you held my head against your heart,
and our toes finally pressed upon the million memories composing our shore.
Gravity felt magnificent as your fingertips touched my lips.
I breathed in your air and the pulse of my blood settled into your embrace.
I think we are the best thing