today my two cats turned fourteen I wonder if they know do cats feel age? I don't want to
the water is no longer hot by the time it reaches the drain it drags down straggling pieces of hair along with it as I pull them out of my red itchy scalp my hair is too long not to brush anymore and i can feel more and more falling out every time each strand is a thought a struggling idea that wants to live but cannot washed down the drain before i choose to act on it
I use two different kinds of soap because I like the smell of both of them
i realize that the moment between the kiss is better than the actual kiss the longing, the reaching the mixed breaths rolling in and out of open mouths tells a much more beautiful story
I scrub at my face I feel the rough spots, the bumps I scrub harder even though i know that no matter how hard i wash it will not become clean I will not be vibrantly beautiful like it is in my dreams and as i stand (or sometimes sit) in the never-changing shower I realize that my life will never be as vibrant as my dreams