my heart aches without you here
tears fall knowing you're nowhere near
Their stupid smug faces surround me
Their words cut like knives, piercing my body

I miss your warmth
I miss your smile
You being here makes the suffering worth while
You make  the pain more bareable
You being here because the days go quicker
You make it easier to ignore them as my parents bicker

You're the reason for me being here
baby you saved me
I wouldn't still be here if it wasn't for you
baby you're my hero
but you don't have a clue
you don't know who i really am
The 'me' you see is really just a scam


i pretend to be better
because if i won all those years ago, i wouldn't have met you
but it's hard to pretend to be happy, again and again
It's hard to prevent yourself from bringing forth the end
and if i did it, course there'd be a letter to send
But would you ever read it?
Would you have the strength to sit and think of me
reading my last thoughts over and over?
Not once, have i ever found a four leaf clover
not in a book, not in real life
not in a photo,
i only ever found my sharp stainless steel knife