A Step-By-Step Guide to Breathing
by aaron-diff4rent-mcdaniel
Inhale
Try to remember what you were doing before you had to remind yourself to breathe
Try to remember why you had to remind yourself to breathe
Remind yourself to breathe again
Tell yourself that the reason you breathe is to replace the carbon dioxide in your blood with fresh oxygen, allowing for your heart to pump it through your body
Remember that time you felt your breathing slow when it was a good idea to replace fresh oxygen with her carbon dioxide
Realize that the Prefix Di- in Dioxide means two
Begin cracking your first smile in days because you think that a broken heart may consider pumping carbon monoxide
Check the batteries in your monoxide detector
Move your pillow closer to the window where the plant she called "ours" still resides, giving breathing a purpose again
Fall asleep wondering if your snoring bothers your dog like it did her
Wake up to your dog snoring louder than you
Consider buying a C-PAP, without knowing who it's better suited for
Catch yourself relating the C-PAP to the band-aid you're placing over your heart, since all it really does is help you pretend that your breathing isn't a problem
Question if breathing is a problem
Google encouraging posters with puppies on them
Find yourself on her instagram again at 3 am, a faux-down comforter the coldest place in a while outside of your own mind
Chuckle at the time you did an instagram series of her stuffing her face
Wonder what your next step should be
Ask yourself if everything is going be okay
Convince yourself everything is going to be okay, while goosebumps cover your chest
Fall back asleep, slowly, dreaming about whether or not you should change your computer wallpaper at work
Discover in your deepest sleep, that breathing shouldn't be difficult. It should be something we don't notice, but remind ourselves of from time to time, whether it's heavy laughter or heavy hearted deep breathes, hitting speed bumps on its way in
You're going to be okay
Exhale