Life
Long
So nervous

Terrified

Want to cry
But I don't cry

Heart pounding
Beat
Beat beat
Beat

Sharp, rip, tear
Serrated knife
In
Slowly out
Inch by slow inch

He's here
She's here
She doesn't understand
He does
What the hell am I doing here?!
Putting myself through this sick
perverted
soap opera

I don't know if I like him
I am so incredibly scare that I'm going to hate him

So unintentional
But I already feel myself connecting

And preparing

Preparing to pull away once again