I am trying to move on, trying to peel away the strings that stick to my skin, linking me to you. My heart crumbles inside me, rewriting it's programming to accommodate the ache you make me feel, as I make furtive glances at your silhouette, imagining how your body would look next to mine on hotel room beds on hurried mornings. And now I'm going places, living a life that I didn't see coming and everything tastes sweeter here but some nights all I can think of is how, you don't call me anymore and I lie awake all alone sometimes, allowing my heartache to course through my skin and if you knew how much you meant to me, you'd perhaps smirk and tell me that it's flattering and maybe it's your arrogance that I like best but some days my hands still reach across screens for yours and I am trying to stop but some part of me is still human and wishes you'd tell me the things that, I'm too afraid to ask even though I know that I perhaps don't want to hear it at all. Some nights, I'm certain that I'm losing my mind but I'd trade my sanity to have you tell me that you feel this too.