Sitting on the couch, trying to remember After my mother left my dad: I don’t know who cut my hair. I doubt I went months and months Until I saw my grandmother again
I know it wasn’t dad, that wasn’t in his box of tricks Though his hands were beautiful beyond compare And created the same in so many ways.
But this didn’t include a sad boy’s hair And besides, he wouldn’t have had the time Or interest.
I missed a lot of school that year The sickness coming that would dog my heals Until this very day The death of art; the closure of a soul to the outside world The retreat and seclusion to make sense of that Which cannot be sensible.
And when they said they would hold me back He came to the school like a small hot flame And scorched the Principle off his feet Scared that huge man into another county I had never seen anything like it And wondered why he would protect me so When he didn’t particularly know how to like me Like anyone or anything, in those days- I guess I was his kid, is all And that’s what fathers did.
I still can’t remember who cut my hair But then again, there are lots of things I Cannot remember and wouldn’t do so if you paid me. I can feel them still but the details are well placed Beneath the foggy glass of time And convenience.