I can't give you what you want. My body is screaming at me for help like a child lost in the supermarket. I willingly entered this situation though. Yet I find that the choices that I face now are not my own. My body is not my own any longer. Tears camouflage with the water that engulfs me completely. The world truly never stops spinning. Mother Nature has left me behind. My body is not my own any longer. I scream and only the sharks hear me and they have no pity for screaming girls. Life fades to black like my favorite film. Mother Nature I realize has not left me behind but has let me join her and become one with her once more.