Does it look like I'm having fun? Far from shore in midst of bottom shelf ocean, Holding me by my edges, afraid I'm about to go off.
"Papa, you're a gun," you rattle off for your friends to hear, "I feel so reckless with you by my side."
Clasping my edges tighter, I dream of backfiring into a passing thought-- I dream of backfiring into good times-- lift up and into your purse I go, with a zip the party softens to a buzz, with a zip I cozy up to velvet darkness.
I gleam in the fluorescent light of a bathroom and when you wrap your lips around my barrel, it's you I want to blow off. I look away when you find my trigger-- I look away, and pretend another's doing the pulling-- "Papa, you're a gun," you whisper especially for me, "I feel invincible with you by my side."
You won't when you realize the chamber has gone empty.