How can I sleep, when every time I close my eyes nightmares haunt me?
What scares me the most is the they've already come true.
And now my fear is of the past repeating itself.
I awake crying, craving your comfort and understanding.
In the end I'm left a lone because you become angry,
Wishing that I would forget the horrible act you had committed.
Your wish is hopeless because forgetting???
No, never.
It's so hard to trust you like I once did.
You say it was stupid, and an act of anger.
That you were just needing a "stress reliever".
All due to an argument that was simply nothing.
Your revenge? You got it.
You surpassed your goal,
Threw our wonderful relationship out the window.
Now trusting you is almost impossible.
Every thought of that day infuriates me.
Every day, every night, it haunts me.
There was so much between us, to you I suppose,
Wasn't anything at all.
Nothing will ever go back to how it used to be.
Looking at the consequences you set up for yourself,
Is it what you've done you regret, or is coming clean?
You say it's the regret of your deceiving act, to you that maybe true.
And I? In my heart,
I do not believe I will ever know.
Or that I could ever put my heart and soul in to our relationship.
I can love you for all it's worth.
I can even forgive you and forever be there for you.
In the end though, I do believe I will always resent you.