No romance tonight Thinking that I lost the fight Driving home drunk and All I want is to give up Can’t see my direction ahead with these swollen eyes
I want to be on lockdown I want to be locked down Alone inside my bedroom Alone inside my head Starving while I think I’m safe All alone but always safe
I want to be on lockdown I want to be locked down Alone inside my crazy head Nothing to prevent these scars Starving but I’m innocent
No Romance for a while Knowing that I’m wrong again Driving home drunk All I want is my own bed Can’t see my direction ahead With these swollen eyes
I want to be on lockdown I want to be locked down Alone inside my bedroom Alone inside my head Starving while I think I’m safe All alone but always safe
I want to be on lock down I want to be locked down Alone inside my crazy head Nothing to prevent these scars Starving but I’m innocent
There’s no romance Between us A dark sky A dark, clouded mind Nothing to stop losing control Nothing to let me go On lock down All locked down
I want to be on lockdown I want to be locked down Alone inside my bedroom Alone inside my head Starving while I think I’m safe All alone but always safe
I want to be on lock down I want to be locked down Alone inside my crazy head Nothing to prevent these scars Starving but I’m innocent
Starving in my bedroom again Starving while I’m innocent Not under the influences
I don't typically write lyrics, but this felt right in the time. I was driving home after a fight with my boyfriend. I wanted to go back to the time when I was very depressed and had nothing. I wanted to be alone again and trapped in darkness. I'm happy to not have gone back to those times. I may not be happy with this relationship right now, but I'm happy to have someone.