entering new waters playing games with hearts drinking the coconut ***, the wine, the ***** losing sobriety as we speak and one rope let's loose the sail swings but the sky is clear and it is fixed but the skies begin to darken and the waters clash along the sides that lose rope will be the downfall of the whole ship how could you believe you could sail the open sea you are stranded on the dry island of depression and foolishness the tea spills you are but a girl in a boat telling herself she is a sailor lying to yourself that you can take on the freedom of the ocean delusional you let the water take you and the salty water runs down your cheek you bite your lip in an attempt to not let the ocean know you are weak and you grab the rope and you hold your position long enough to hear the radio the coast guard asks are you okay you are distressed and need someone and as the salty water enters your eyes and mouth, you find yourself steadied by their words, anchoring down the anchor that has appeared when the waters were like this before and you find yourself able to breathe and say i don't know and you accept that you are no sailor but a hopeless romantic waiting for something to settle into with no dock in sight anchors dig in to fight the water when there isnβt time or a place to settle into a harbor and this is familiar territory: feeding the water, rocks, and vegetation gripping onto something that both provides stability and holds you down from moving on believing materialistic things and blocking out the seriousness of sinking will fill the vastness within her soul and the girl who was no sailor knows that the storm always passes eventually and she'll learn to be a sailor in good time she wants to live to grow to be someone no person is, capable of just sailing without making mistakes there will always be rough waters and she will realize that the anchor of that future sailor comes from within herself