Up at night
Sighing turns into crying
You called
So the poem got stalled
Now its 10:27am and I want to start crying
But now its endless sighing
Again
Feeling these emotions where do I begin
I haven't wrote in months
But i feel the need to be blunt
These are things id never tell you just incase you may feel bad
Cause its starts off as anger you're oh so mad
Then you get down and now your oh so sad
I pray to god that you're faithful to me
I pray you have truly changed and you're everything you said you'd be
I lose my mind
I don't tell you most of the time
How one minute im find and the next I have tears rolling down my face
These horrible thoughts and feelings im trying to replace
You make my anxiety bounce off the walls
But with out you i wouldn't have known i had it at all
It starts off with heat covering my body then i start to sweat
You've turned me into a train wreck
Then i start to feel nauseous
Then i begin to be cautious of my emotions
I worry 24/7 about you and other girls
How if anything happened that would shatter my world
I can't stomach a situation that deals with your ex
It getting worse and worse and today is the next
How i can never think any good of you
When it comes to her
everything you've done becomes a blur
Everything isn't just little when it comes to them
And the chances of you sacrificing for me are slim
I feel like they tear us apart
There actions forge into our relationship and I end up with the hurting heart..
Id sacrifice anything for you
Do anything you say to do
But you cant. Wont do the same for me
Its alot i see
You don't think like I
And I don't think like you do
Maybe I did expect too much from you
My heart feels crushed
Feels like its carrying on to too much
My dream says theres a loss or a change coming in the relationship
Which in my heart it is very hard to grip
It says i feel indifferent neglected and alone
Sitting here on this throne
You say im am a queen a goddess to you
But is this how you treat one.. do you?
I don't want to lose something important to me
You