Personalized experience
What is anxiety
Can it be explained
Can it be understood
The minute by minute
Daily experience
Is anxiety in its simplistic form just FEAR
How to survive being afraid for 52 years
I want to tell you/ I just don't know how
How to live with fear but not let anybody know
Does it show
How to speak understanding about feelings...
This is why I sleep so much
Why I seek out sleep
A brain at rest..Asleep
Thoughts I have that are in no way good for my body
A tiny constant stabbing if you will

FEAR
Of everything ahead of me
So common that it doesn't always register mentally
It just attacks my body
A sensation of unease
Manifesting in body heat
Body Heat...The worst
A horrible companion
It will be what kills me
All of it/wrapped up together like a bag over the head

Anxiety/Fear/Shame
What is shame
Fear of you knowing me
The irrational self Awareness of me
You will not like me
You will point at me
You will be disappointed

People
You scare me so
Not knowing what you will do
Not knowing what you will say

Anxiety/Fear/Shame/Sensitivity
What is sensitivity
To feel more than to know
To hear more than is said
To see more than is visible
To replay when it has ended
To search for more than is found
To fear more than is real
To say less than is needed
To mourn more than is lost

I am not too sensitive
I am me
I am not too anything
You are not less anything
You are you
Meet me halfway

To Think
Thinking is the dog chasing the tail
Exhaustion wills out
To Sleep
So much energy to simply exist
I am not weak
I am tired

Robert Keaty