Dear lord what am I to do? I love him and at the same time I hate him too. He's so selfish, arrogant and gosh what an a**, I've known for awhile this relationship would'nt last. I've been thinking this for way too long, Why am I still here? To see what else can go wrong! I know I deserve better than this, I do what I can for him and still I get dissed. Lord I dont know what else to do, You have made it clear to me the last time I asked you.