Why am I still awake? Cause I'm paranoid. I have to be awake in 5-6 hours. Normal amount of sleep. Why am I writing? And why on HePo? Am I bored? I should sleep. I might make this a series. No. Don't bother. People won't want to read this. People don't typically like me. They sure as hell don't get me. How can they? I don't even understand, Sometimes, My own thoughts. And since the a/c just cut off The world got deafeningly quiet. Painfully so. I hate the quiet. They start screaming. They don't like to talk. They just yell. Make noise. I'll have to ignore them. Likely. Likely likely likely. I qualify for almost everything. Except for substance. But no one knows. They can't see the symptoms. I've gotten good at hiding them. Good at pushing others away. I've had a couple years to practice. I should get something to drink. Water maybe. I don't want to wake them though. Maybe they won't. And it's a legitimate excuse. They won't really care. I should be listening to music. Why wasn't I? Did I really not think of it? Did I forget? Why did I only just notice this? Doesn't matter. I'll be asleep soon. I won't want the music.