I can't being to say I know how it feels or how you feel, because I don't losing someone or something close to you hurts more than a broken arm more then that gun wound. It's like knowing that the last time you saw that person will be the last time you see him. I start to wonder for a minute how can you just laugh with someone one day and the next there gone for good and you didn't even get to say bye
Holding on to ever memory that you two shared even the bad ones but the worst one is when you left an that's the memory I have left that's the picture in my head no happy memories only the one of you lying dead in my arms try to struggle for that last breath I sat there for while and I think and I stared off into space I cant even smile but I begin to cry knowing today will be the last day the last time I'll ever see or hear your voice I can't begin to say I know how you feel or what you are feeling or the images in your head as you watched your brother die but all I can say is everything will be alright. R.I.P cam