Was it worth it when you shed a tear and pushed me from my own
Straight into the unknown abyss of the who-am-I’s
And where-do-I-go-from-here’s?
Was it worth it to give your heart but so swiftly tear it away
At the unexpected moment when “I love you”
Was “I still do” but “what you had to do”?
Was it worth it when you made it all one-sided and alone,
That you weren’t ready and didn’t want it
When you began it all?
Was it worth it when you changed the past to make me someone different,
A crazy, clingy girl revolved around
The perfectly realistic guy?
Was it worth it when you lied to me and everyone around,
When you spied on personal accounts
And manipulated them so?
Was it worth it when you lied about her, making me a cheater
When I didn’t even know,
Caught up in my tears and tequila?
Was it worth it when you tried to tell me that it never happened,
And I never told my secrets,
A delirious, drunken girl?
Was it worth it when you manipulated my messages but claimed of no such thing,
That you don’t care at all, never will,
And haven’t all along?
Was it worth it when you called me a mistake, a **** and failure
When I once was a “guardian angel,”
Loved, your “home,” and family?
Would it be worth it if I left forever and murdered every possibilty of returning?
Would you once again let a cold, salty line be drawn straight down your face?
Would you regret any of it?
Was it worth it when I believed in it? And that I had it for you?
You bet your *** it was.
I miss you, you lying ****
But you deserve every ounce of happiness and success this world can offer.
And if you’re getting there, I could ask for nothing more.
And through my cold demeanor, I'd be nothing but ecstatic for you.