Ever felt light and shadow all at once? Ever felt darkness and day at the same time? Ever had every feeling of every emotion you can imagine bottled up inside?
Understand the feeling is incomprehensible, it is non-understandable, it is unfathomable, unquestionably surreal.
Death and life thoughts together, oceans and thunderstorms, coarse and smooth, fluffy and rough.
All of those at once, who knows how to handle it? Who knows how to control it? Who knows how to rein it in?