before i fall asleep...especially then.
my mind roams and roams,
but always back. back. to you.
i feel the fire in my throat, the ashes in my belly.
all i want to do is scream.
i thought you were real, i wish you weren't.
it wouldn't hurt so much, if you were just a fragment
of the imagination.
but unfortunately, your kisses did burn. your tongue
was the sweetest. your ***** were my monsters,
eating every part of me.
your eyes drove me insane.
all i can see is a storm.
all i can see is a sea.
all i can see is a explosion.
and there's always the two of us.
i am drowning, drowning, drowning.
and you are above the water,
smiling. smiling. smiling. at me.
the water enters my lungs. unconsciousness swells into me.
you smile. my fingertips graze the air.
i feel the sun. you place your hand upon my hair.
you kiss it. and drag me.
down. down. down.
i will never feel the sun again.