I swear I only find peace in my dreams
Waking up seeing things aint what they seem
My heart while asleep so calm
But soon as i wake up turns into a bomb
Dreaming of the feeling of being in love
Felt like my soul had been kissed from an angel above
I woke up and for one second I felt it And for that second i was at peace with myself
I felt love and felt for myself some wealth
I want to feel that feeling in my heart everyday
I become sad when I awake and the feeling goes away
This isn't what it's supposed to be
My dreams truly being better than my reality
Causs you messing me up
Got me yelling out ****
Why do i do this
This love thing can never get the just of it
i told you you were ******* me up you said how
I said cause your making me want you more god I want you now
You said well then your ******* me up too
All that runs through my mind is *** do i do
Didn't even realize when we talked how much I wanted to cry
You know I cant but noone knows why
You laying on my chest
That feeling truly being the best
But I stayed trying to cover my face & and hide
Just incase my heart decided for once it wanted to cry
Cause I heard the whine
But in my heart a shed of a tear there was no sign
I come to reality and see myself about to fall
But weather or not you catch me its your call
You asked me what I see in you a few weeks ago
And up to now I still haven't let you know
I see someone beautiful with a beautiful soul
Willing to help someone so cold
I seen you were independent
Which made me fall deeper in it
In it being you
Cause you be having me speechless and not not knowing what to do
I see a kind heart
One I pray that wont tear me apart
In you i see motivation a person that keep trying
Giving all dedication to what she loves
I see somewhere i would love to lye my trust
Cause you said its not nowhere near lust
Caring cause you find my pain attractive
When most would find my hurt radioactive
I see happiness in you and some for myself
Cause in the past that's just not how the cards were dealt
I see someone sensitive cause i see the soft spot
Tbh i say you caught me right on the dot
You said its bad timing
But we could just be unwinding
It could work out ya never know
You just need to figure out the road to take the way to go
In you i see confusion
You just can't seem to sum up what you want in conclusion
I see a person so smooth
One that has me right into her groove and how she does things
When you first called me you had my feelings down to a science
Like i said before you had me in complete silence
I see someone who can read me like a book cover to cover
You do it like no other
You being someone i try to fall back from and it just doesn't work
The thought of that id b lyin if I said it didn't hurt
You being so bad for me but feeling so good
The rush im feeling so wrong ofcourse it would
Your lips against mine
I forget about the surroundings the situation and the time
Then my soul starts the fire
Of this horrible addicting desire
You are so ADDICTIVE 
and my mind knows im wrong and gets so descriptive
With these feelings its makes my thoughts vision blurry
My mind under a cloud of smoke rushing it wants to hurry
But it's just too **** late
& maybe thats what my spirt hates
Im oh so infuriated with you
But it never shows because you never give it a reason to
I remember the exact night when you caught me in your hook
The night when my heart shook
When you called and sung for me
My heart opened its eyes for itself to see
But when you started story telling
Boy she started screaming and yelling
During that night I caught myself biting my lips
And tingling all through my fingers tips
When big you my heart became alive
And for you she charged and took her leap and dived
And till this day I am still reading that book
Wondering when you tie the knot on her hook
day to day she struggles to see what's on the next page
And until she reaches the end her heart stays in rage