I cannot loose you.
Please don't let me loose you.
I cannot bear to feel this pain.
I have seen the signs of separation from your eyes.
I have seen the pain i might have caused you,
I have gone through the pain of begging to be with you.

I can never be perfect.
I can never try to be someone else,
but each day as i look in your eyes i wonder whether you feel the same way that i do.
I can see how much my personality bores you to death.
This becomes so painful because i know i can never change.
This is who i am.this is where i feel most comfortable.
This is who i thought you loved in me.

A few days ago i saw you freeze to the thought of spending a week with me.
I set it aside but today i saw how much you would do not to do it at all.
It kept my mind wondering how could you despise me so much?
And yet still beg to be with me?