It keeps happening, She keeps putting herself in situations
Where she waits and waits, screaming to herself in her head
Staring into the shine of car headlights and the ripple of bath water
Waiting, waiting, waiting to die.
Screaming for the car to speed up, speed up so much
As she slows her pace walking across the road
Almost talking herself into submerging herself
And resisting the pain of drying lungs just to die.
Turning her back on food but hoping to choke on it
Minipulating blades to caress her fading skin.
It all happens before she even realises shes doing it.
Like her body wants to fly so far off that cliff
Without her mind knowing.
I guess, I guess she just wants to die.