I think I am okay
And then I catch a wisp of a memory
And the thought of you floors me
My chest aches
And I am gasping
Trying to breathe again
Because the thought of
A world without you
Is unbearable
Unthinkable
At best

I think I am over you
And then I see you
And my heart takes off
Fluttering and flying
At one billion beats per minute
Towards you
Yearning to be close to you
To be closer to what felt like home

Is this what relapsing
Feels like?