The light dims and the dead raise their glasses To the wine of wasted, blood-streaked tears That permeate my mind. I lift my hand and reach For them, but I am left with dripping dark As the spirits of my dead emotions seek release.
As freelance feelings take their leave, am I human? The thought of thatching shattered glasses Brings back the dead, their forming tears Mysteriously absent. And so they reach The clammy, clotted, ****** hands through dark Eyes; I scream that they might release.
But will the cold hands pity, and me release? The light has fled the black irises: inhuman Fusion of animation and empty glasses In their eyes, like mine. Dry, lacking tears That life gives. She bustles in the kitchen, reaches For the saffron. But their souls remain dark.
And my sorrowing saffron soul is poisoned dark. Let me go! I sigh release. I am not human. I am broken glass. A fading fear of tears, A soul outside my reach.
I am no fool; I do not claim to reach Outside the world of dreaded dark In which I live without release. The creeping hands of Death are human, As I am. Cast aside my riveting rose glasses That rivers may run swift in my trailing tears.
Finally, the tears. My own icy hand does reach And wipes away the shifting dark. The dead, as always, seek the just release, But they are not human. They do not wear my eyes, my glasses.
So raise the glass to my trying tears, I reach and find no dark. My feeling now released, I say that I am human.
My first complete Sestina. It's much darker than the poetry I usually write.