Beliefs are now forgotten,
Maybe they never existed.
But all those thoughts feel rotten,
I guess all my ‘friends’ should’ve persisted.

Occasionally I wonder if I ever believed in bliss,
Or if I just assumed it would happen at some point.
I guess we all must fail at remiss,
Maybe all we can do is disappoint.

When I ponder over what actually matters,
My mind turns blank.
Everything I care about ultimately shatters,
It’s hard to ever thank.

I try to never frown.
But even happiness must fade.
Thoughts turn upside-down,
As I wish memories would’ve stayed.

Past thoughts will always remain,
And love will never die.
I still can’t help but wish all that would drain,
And leave me to wonder why.

I wish to disappear,
To fade into the ground.
Feelings could be clear,
Perhaps all of them could be found.

Everything must collapse,
Or nothing new could begin.
But I wish to stop hitting relapse,
Maybe then I could leave with a grin.

A decision will always stay.
In the very back of my head.
Sometimes I wish it would decay,
At times I hope it will never shed.

But we can’t ever disregard,
Or all our hopes and memories would always be left scarred.