I feel so alone.
I feel like everyone just left.
I isolated myself,
And pushed everyone away.
I sit unaccompanied replaying horrid memories in my mind-
Thinking revolting thoughts that just won’t go away.
I’m not content with who I am anymore,
I despise every part of who I am.
I allowed myself to lose everyone and everything of importance.
I permitted myself to descend off the boundaries of life,
And live in a world where only my mind exists.
I lost the main part of myself,
That made who I am evident.
The person I am deep down is vague and slowly disappearing.
I failed at staying true to whom I was,
I successfully left the minds and thoughts of everyone I cared about.
I cut-off everyone from the bonds that once were shared.
And mutual feelings were broken.
I feel so alone,
Because I effectively lost everyone,
And everything that once mattered.
Everyone is gone,
Except for my own mind that is decomposing as well.