trust (verb):
the action of placing faith, belief, and confidence in another;
something I don’t do anymore
truth (noun):
a statement that corresponds with what is factual or certain;
something no one tells anymore
love (noun):
very strong feelings of affection toward another;
a lie that I don’t believe in anymore –
how they get you to give them everything,
you and your life and your heart,
and you’re completely okay with doing that because you think they are doing the same;
a game; an illusion I don’t look for anymore
love (verb):
to make a commitment to someone;
to give your heart completely and unconditionally;
something I avoid admitting, because if I do,
I can no longer protect my heart from the crushing boulder
that’s taken refuge in my chest for the last year
to be myself:
to simply void myself of emotion;
to distract myself with work when I can’t numb myself anymore