When he stayed out late at nights
I cried myself to sleep.
Put on a fake beautiful smile everyday.
While he cheated and lied,
Missing his children's recitals and birthdays.
I put on my fake smile
And covered for his selfish ***.
While he broke me
Destroying my happy ending.
While I pretended he was still the man of my dreams.
He told everyone how low I had fallen,
He made a mockery of me.
While I cried and I begged for my world to stay the same as it was.
He walked away, ignoring my screams and cries.
I clung to his leg begging him not to give us up.
To save his family, to cherish what we had.
He kicked me off him into the dirt
He never even looked back.

Then, when he missed me and was alone.
I took him back and I tried
I tried to rebuild the trust, to regain the love.
But it was too late and it just wouldn't work.
He had blown out the flame that we had.
And there was nothing either of us could get it back.
And when I walked away, he did the unspeakable.
The unforgivable.
The ultimate shot to my heart.
He had my children taken and that was the end of who I was.
He had broken the last piece of me.

I cried for months and months,
Couldn't talk, work laugh.
I was just a body, my soul had vanished
Too broken to carry on.
My heart was shattered.
And I survived by numbing myself and escaping into another world.
Where my babies were not taken from me.
Where I was good enough and where I wasn't broken.

Now I am the broken one,
The less responsible choice for the very beings I lived for.
Now he cuddles my baby every night.
Now, the baby who left and never cared when she cried in the night.
The baby I held every night, the baby I cherished
The baby I would give my life for.
The baby that he never cared about.
He has,
And I am lost.
And once again,
Karma doesn't seem to exist.

Remember Ingrid,
I tell myself.
This story hasn't come to the end.
Don't give up yet
A happy ending may be just around the next corner.