It isn’t beauty or love. Beauty and love are expressive words about art, but they do not form art. It is the pain and fear of love and beauty. The pain of having and the fear of losing. And the fear comes from the knowledge that you will have to face it someday. And the pain is always there, lurking behind beauty that is called art.
All those bad memories, sad days. On those days or after, you relieve yourself of the pain, so you can face another day made of pain. Between the moments of relief and pain are the days filled with fear. And whenever you write, you write of fear or pain, in the seek of beauty and love between your words of fantasy.