listen
i know you'll never seen this
but i just wanted to say I'm sorry...
I'm sorry that i loved you too much

I'm sorry for every time i acted like i was cracking my neck
when i was really trying to look at you again
I'm sorry that i tried to push my love on to you
when i knew you didn't want it

i know that every time i texted you
i was annoying you but...
i just wanted to make sure you knew i existed
and that i wanted to be there
for you

i feel stupid that i couldn't accept that you didn't want me
and now i know for sure...
you never well be
god...i feel like such an idiot

look
i only acted the way i did because
i wanted you to love me
but i just made you hate me
and now i understand why

i just loved you so much
and i couldn't sleep well at night
knowing that you might meet another guy
who wouldn't and couldn't love you like i could

i just wish we could be friends again
or better yet
i wish i could go back in time
and tell my younger self

"stop, i know shes the most beautiful you've ever seen
and i know this is going to be hard for you to come to terms with
but trust me...
its just not meant to be dude...
this is the hardest thing you'll ever have to do
but just let it go...
while she still calls you a friend..."