I
top of the valley
))) showerhead & birdsong,
the womanlike apparition
of previous nights,
confession buries its warmth within fervent tangerine sheets (where the day is hot and the future is formless)
I approach the dawn
in naked repose/horns repeating/soft a hares tail is
spotted with freckled water from Lands End,
youth & ideal kiss-image lost in bedsheets/
eyes are painted with creekwater
to impermanence, guarding the stones we left there
drying away/I miss you already
(the island which reconciled my heart to that of a lambs infant noise)
all worry and expenses vanished at the throw of an axe
haze/fire/italian wine/the stirrings of March brought forth for inspection
in the dim glow of our ashes/butterfly asleep/carved dragon
draped with the fury in your kiss/
I stand naked before the valley, an initial warmth fills its features. A smile stems in the garden loosely protected by wire, I am temporarily innocent of day/
my restless behavior now soaked into a wooden platform
Clothes placed on a nearby log, I now cloak an inevitability to my skin, one of a whisper, mute in the heart as yet,
heavy (molten lead) to the rest of me
(questions starve in my mouth,
for the sake of any dire simplicity/animal truth in tongue/awakened from its hibernation)
I am gripping the mothmask
helpless & drawn instinctually
toward the fire which
hurts me
(the witch unafraid of being burned)
stumbling in black of later-spoken confusion/divided tones/two worshippers of the same trickster idol-
-only promising the subdued rising day,
where you monastically
prepare (with such grace) the next meal of bananas & hot tea, cupped with mint leaves, meanwhile,
Ethiopian rhythm fills the trees with a land who's taste they'll never know
(& suddenly I am the forest)
II
(out of sight)
-hitchhiked home & let out here, a brown ivory-trimmed wood church hardly the size of a house a little ways down the road, myriad
insect conversation & the dry, eclipsing valley, carrying with me a simple liberation of spirit, one I can't let go of by necessity-
-my shoes are scuffed with loose dirt at the sole, I must pantomime the Sea, now more than ever
(without intervention)
-my clothes clean all things considered-
(darling time acts in accordance to nothing but its own divine & careless will)
-as if ingrained to me by the Summer heat, & the earned sweat on my back.
"Life needs to be lived, not to be solved" - Osho