He old her that he was uncomfortable around me. I know exactly why, because he did to me what he swore to himself he would never do. He became the demon that ruined him that pushed him over the edge, he did to me what drove him to take a whole bottle of pills. That’s why he is uncomfortable around me. He told me that i was his and he was mine and that I was the love of his life. He told her that I was his “backup” girl, or the girl he would run to if he was lonely.
He didn’t really love me.. He saw me as a broken, wounded, naive girl that would love him. That would validate his feelings. An easy target. A girl he could use and abuse then leave. What he did to me was almost as horrid as Ej. Ej used and abused me physically, He did the same thing mentally. Why would he do such a terrible thing? Why would he leave me questioning? Why would he deliberately hurt me? Why would he use me? Why would he do what he did to me with no motive? What did I do to him that made him do this? Why is he just like everyone else? Why didn’t I see it coming? He.. Why..