Fear and anxiety
A prickly pain in my skin
As it bursts to the surface
So intense and miserable
A yearning for you
Imagine your happy home
Everything in place
Wife, children, house
Me, alone
Can't earn your attention
Can't wait to see you again
I'm told
this is pathology
Why does it feel so real?

Mother and Father
a perfect unit
until I invaded, destroyed it
They stick together
talk about me in the third person
shut me out
always on the outside
Please include me in your family
No, you don't belong
Stay in your cold, lonely room
You are an invader here
Be happy to be tolerated for a time
This was reality