I can't sleep because my mind is racing with stupidity
Figuring out the complicated just to forget about it in the morning
But I can't sleep
The weakness always gets the best of me
because I'm strong yet my will to fight is gone
So even if I did, no effort would be put in and although I feel nothing now
I still think of him
1st love is always a mess
The condition I was in seemed correct
If only I remembered the first time we'd played connect
How he hurt me
The 1st time was just pain
The 2sd time I forced myself to cry even though deep inside I didn't care
I knew one day he wouldn't be there
As long as I repaid my smile
It'd be worth the while but no I just had to fall head over heels
Losing my focus which was the hills
Now nothing is the same
Because he made me realize failing to climb the hill hurts
But when you do reach the top don't let anything let you drop
Feeling accomplished and whole
Now I'm just alone
Although I found a new thing
The ending is always the same
I care but I don't
I say I will but I won't
What a waste of time
It's myself I despise
But I feel no guilt when
I fool everyone with lies