resting my body while resting my thoughts thoughts of more stay together unturned you talk to me like I'm a puzzle to assemble you say I can be figured out so I don't lose my mental talking to understand to get to know me I tell you I'm broken I'm ****** up, I'm lonely it's always me who falls back down you might be the one that one day I just see around
breathing out and I breathe back in the memories of my life present and past tense I speak of memories that have changed even the recent weeks at times I feel like I'm losing myself wrapped in bed without someone to help my window shows me the world the world I'm too scared to roam the only world I know is when I'm alone at home
you ask where I like to be you ask what makes me happy a destination not felt threatened one where my tears flow like a river downstream where I want to sleep to wake up and lie to convince myself it was all a dream my mind is not okay the words try to escape if you knew me truly you wouldn't want to stay no different from others who make assumptions of me so I hope you stay I hope you say to you I am something when to me I feel like nothing
one day I'll have the will power to build up my tower and not break and fall to never again become nothing at all I'll have the will power to love myself more than just an hour to dream of things that would deem me as someone without suicidal tendencies my life would appeal to you without additional weight on top of your shoulders my mind could be cleaned with unconditional love as you tell me my true potential or what I could become if I could just believe in my own very dreams such a straining activity for someone broken like me but one easy activity to you my pain is caused by only me but I'm locked away by what others see their concerns become my own they overthrow my thoughts and you take control you become possessive our first found love turns to fist fights then to aggression I don't speak a word scared of addressing your morals vanished I lost my best friend I then lost those I spent my time with I became foolish to think there is good in everybody to think people were all genuine I compacted this world into a small package that, to me, made sense I made the world an easy pill to swallow but the pill made me ill I saw the world turn against me I saw you stare me down maliciously we took the same pill both seeking a cure to our empty hearts and lives obscured but you couldn't be saved mind rotted you became insane soon our motives both seemed to change our love stopped rushing throughout my veins you had the key to my mind the mind that you threw inside a cage to keep my thoughts locked away
I was only me alone at night when I struggled and strained my eyes while tears poured out I simply loved myself most when you weren't around but alone I felt as if I was of no use I'm not eccentric just mundane carried no attitude something I had struggled to get used to so when people see me as something so simple I always tell them why I feel so little if you're reading this now you know why suppressing thoughts only makes me want to die half the time I **** my mind waiting here for a friend as I ponder how it feels to have a friend not to feel like you always have to be independent and I ponder how it feels to be lonely the only time I know is when I stare in the mirror with my own reflection staring back at me my life trapped inside solitude my life is trapped it's not enticing so it means nothing to you you're green I'mβ blue and blue was never your favorite you like crayons but my life's a pen it can't be erased everything's permanent now I ponder only of when I'll meet someone else who's life is a pen who's life holds baggage that they carry over so we could look inside and help out eachβ other this love to me is super simple I want love that is unconditional I don't want to be alone anymore piece my heart back together revive it into something less torn be the person for me who wants to know more be the person for me that isn't afraid to dance in my emotional thunderstorm