Ow,and it really hurts this timeknowing I'm not with youlaying on your chest.and yes, its all my fault I let it go my grip wasn't strongand its all my fault.In ways it seems I take pleasure in this pain.You didn't trick me. i knew all along.you treated me bad thats why i ended it.I don't miss what you are.I miss knowing I could have love just as strong as i did for youI loved the wanting someone. but not wanting their words.just your presence was enough.I tear myself apart,sorry I used you as a test for myself.But I needed to know i was capable of this skill.Love.