she's laying awake at night
staring at your face
with all of its expressions
she stares deep
into the layers of skin wrapped in veins and arteries
where your skull hides your brain
I'll slice the thought and break your mind
and as i chip away all of these meaningless things
i chip these memories, these heartbreaks, this abandonment.
like an infection coming for your soul.
i rip away every aspect of every hope and desire
like the fire deep in your stomach when she appears
you hope to have her there, when you're not really here.
thriving and convulsing to get out
fingers twitch
it moves up your hand
they tremble and shake
your arms compelled to move
your muscles ache.
you feel the loss of control.
you feel this burning sensation crawling in your back
like a snake slithering around and around your spinal cord
squeezing and tightening its grip with every movement you make.
holding on to every kiss now
every moment in its passionate complex
feeling the beads of sweat run down her shoulder blades,sides,lower back
as she thrusts her hips against yours
your running for it now
you remember the sounds she made
the way she breathed.
shes putting on her clothes
strapping her shoes.
your still sleeping.