must. must. must. stop the acid from rising
like a bubble to the surface,
it must not reach.
must. must. must. let the window sing all the melodies,
refused so long before.
write the colors, taste the caress.
must. must. must. no longer let these shadows run freely,
no harness. no control.
demonic laughs. no concealment.
must. must. must. write the word "love" upon my wrists,
and then my stomach, and then my *******, and then my legs
and then my feet and then my hands.
the ink will sink. sink. sink. into me.
maybe then. maybe then.