Forced into being a motherless girl with a child of my own,
left to figure out this thing called life all alone.
no mother figure to look up to, to run to ,
what I wouldn't give to hug you ,have fun with you, bring my son's to you.
but your gone now
it's been so long now.
you exist only in pictures and memories
one-sided conversations and prayers that you are at peace and watching over me.
are you in heaven? is it beautiful there?
is my brother with you does he watch over my kids here? are you proud of me ?
am i doing okay?
I am trying my best learning from my mistakes every day.
am I doing a good job at being a mom?
so many things I never got to ask you Mom.
All I can do is try to be the best mom I could be,
Follow in your footsteps mothering my kids how you mothered me!
Missing you forever mommy.....