You’re laboring under the false assumption that I’m willing to work at anything right now. You’re laboring under the false assumption that any part of me is working how it should right now.
Here’s something: When you connect one wire to both sides of a battery, the plastic coating of the wire starts to sizzle and melt and smoke.
When I think, that thought leaves my brain for a while, pulling a new train of different thoughts behind it. I have a small room, and soon, the train has laid tracks all around the carpet, along the hideous green walls. Tracks everywhere.
I’m left with a choice I can’t make. If the train derails, then I can’t think, and that terrible void comes back. If I let the train lay tracks back inside my head, I turn into the battery.