last night i had a dream i was dying at first it was a lot of pain but then it was quiet and it happened at the end of a Finding Dory sequel
i read a poem about heartbreak and it made me think that what i want isn’t to hear you speak to me like you used to, i just want to repeat the words you did say, not just in my head not silent, not stuck in the back of my throat but out loud with some tissues and a tv remote to press skip when you kissed me and play when you spoke and try to hear if you really meant what you wrote out in texts and letters at one in the morning or in the passenger seat of your mom’s mini van that i think she may now have retired
my therapist told me that saying that the reason i’ll never **** myself is that it would hurt the people in my life is an admittance of my own self-worth do you agree? i think if i died it would **** you and i don’t think death speaks to you in the same language as it does to me so maybe you wouldn’t like that i know i wouldn’t like that i know i wouldn’t like you to die