******* ******* when my self hatred falls from my arm in tiny red raindrops, when these feelings of hopelessness have pinned me on to my bed forcing me to dream that my life was as perfect as I wish it wasΒ I am alone. When Satan's lulling me into the sugary sweet sleep of death I am alone.Β when the bullet explodes upon my skull, when the chair falls as my aching heart, and burning lungs collapse I am alone.