place your happiness in the hands of others
and they will destroy it
allow yourself to assume the best in people
even when they are composed of vain
sacrifice yourself in exchange for the validation of others
and you shall always be disappointed
convince yourself that without him you will be incomplete
yet
with him
you will be whole
and he will fill the silence
grow daffodils where there were once thorns
he shall create oceans of your deserts
and in the darkness
he will illuminate the light you've been longing for
you force yourself to believe that no one will ever love you for all that you are the way he did
that no one will ever surmount your tempest and see the beauty
that no one could ever fall in love with so much intricacy and complexity
you build a wall around the idea of letting people in
of allowing someone to take a step inside and see whats beyond the guarded doors of your heart
ashamed for all that you are
even though there is so much to be proud of
i watch you drown yourself in the sea he built for you
hoping that your call for rescue will awaken him
but you are left to drown in his memory
how revolting
the promises they make
are never able to be kept
-c. alejandra