Dopamine are running low
Black and whites are all I saw
This emptiness
This loneliness

Lying at my bed till 3pm
Never took lunch nor breakfast
I felt like I was drowning
Drowning on regrets
By what ifs and how
I wanted to die right now

Confused as ****
Because luck was never at my side
My mind tells me to pull the trigger
But my body tells me dont

Wearing this fake smile
To ward people off
It was never okay
To be asked if your okay
In my mind I was a warrior
but my brain says I'm not

Oh god please
Praying, let this thing go
This darkness that overheads me
It feels like it was always
a stormy weather everyday
But just clouds and no rain
Am I going insane?

Always fighting
Always troubled
Always seeing this shadow
Always grasping what it is

Then I saw you
and the sun finally came
I didn't even took the blame
It was blinding
But it was warm
and the happy hormones began to swarm

I wanted to make memories again
I wanted to live again
Never did I recognized myself
After you changed me


For it was summer all again
After the long harsh winter
It was warm
and I was happy again