The person I needed
When I was in my most Vulnerable.
Having those thoughts,
Wanting that door open.
No one knew.
I was alone.
Stuck with my mind,
I fought the keep it inside,
Not to show my weakness
The weakness of crying for help.
I tried to be tough,
Act like everything was good.
Detaching myself,
From myself.
To make it easier I guess
To forget who I was,
Where I was,
and Why I was.
I wanted to be,
Nothing.

In the past,
Almost opening that door,
No one knew,
I was going to open the door,
No one knew,
I wanted to open,
And be gone.
Thinking back,
Thinking at that moment,
The moment,
I heard he opened his door,
I didn't know why.
Then I thought,
If he could open it.
Maybe I could to.